When you attain a goal, there’s an instant flash of euphoria, a big celebration of what you achieved, followed by a brief period of satisfaction and accomplishment. Eventually, that euphoria fades away into realization that your previous life is now in the past and that you’re left to your own devices in the new path that you have chosen. Like it or not, you’re there and you need to make the best of it. Stability comes and you live out your life which now begins to pass at a frighteningly quicker rate that you have never experienced before.
Part of me feels like I have arrived at the destination. Most of me is now asking, “What now? What’s the next goal? What’s up on the horizon? Am I done? Is this it? What lies ahead?” To tell you the truth, I don’t know. For those of you who know me, or who have been reading here on a regular basis over the past five years, you’ll know that it’s a position that I absolutely loathe. I always need to be looking over to the next big mountain to climb, the next challenge. The thing that bothers me is that I really don’t know what that mountain is, and I saw the last two months of my life just flash right before my eyes without having a plan… a direction… a goal.
For the past few weeks, I’ve been feeling like I’ve been wandering aimlessly academically and career-wise. I really need to have to sit down to decide what I need to do over the next five years. It’s been awhile since I have reset that compass. I need to set that path on where we will go.
Well, the next couple of weeks will be interesting. Perhaps this important and vital exercise will spawn a few more journal entries.
Hmmmm time for a new tagline….