There are some things that you just can’t control – like choosing between two good things. My wife understands this all to well. We have a choice to make, but one will come at the expense of the other. I just don’t see any other way around it.
Sometimes I regret going to Edmonton due to the financial hit… but the only thing that makes me not regret the decision to go was that Maisie and Andrel got to go to the temple for the very first time. I’m paying severely for the financial repercussions – but those two kids and the smile on my face when we went to the temple are the only things holding me together at the moment.
But I can’t worry about those things right now. I have a business statistics midterm, a financial accounting midterm and a large manegerial accounting assignment due in less than 24 hours. I’m hungry and I the debit card has run dry one week before payday. But Just like the hell of the early fall of 1998, I have no choice but to focus on the task at hand – to get an A on these three things. I can’t afford to fail. I can’t.
I pray for the strength to just get through this week. If I can survive this week without cracking I know that I’ll be okay.