Sometimes, I wonder what my life will be like in the future. Will we get that house that we always wanted? Or more immediately, will we get out of our parent’s basement? I look at people around me who are making less money than I am, but they’re doing quite well, holding their own with their own place.
Somtimes I wonder if I will ever amount to the way I thought I would when I was younger. I grew up thinking that I was going to be one of those “movers and Shakers”. Right now, I’m not so sure.
Evelyn and I were looking through some old pictures of mine, and I saw a picture of Chris Lane, Mike Kassam, Peter McCabe and me. Three out of four people in that picture graduated from University. Three out of four people ended up with very successful careers. One of them got a masters and is now doing medical research, inventing things that will save lives.
To think that when I was younger, I looked down on them. I seriously thought that I was going to be more successful than they would be. How naiive…. and here I am, answering technical support calls at 1 in the morning out of necessity to support our family.
Humility hasn’t always been my strong suit. Sure, I can act the part of a humble guy quite well, but there are some days where I really wonder… what happened to me? What happend to my brains, my talents, my abilities? Where did it all go?
Now I must catch up. I must complete my degree and get out of debt and get that job that our family needs so I can see them at night. I cannot afford to fail! There are too many people depending on me.
Sometimes I wonder… if I wonder to much. There is much to do.