The past few days have been particularly hard. After the recent incedent, I really didn’t feel like doing much of anything except being angry. I didn’t want to do the right things. I only wanted to do the wrong things – things that I know will be detrimental to my spiritual and psycological health. Although I haven’t done anything grave or horrible, I do feel drained, tired and depressed. And you know what? Nothing good came out of it!
It’s a hard lesson to learn, but I think that Rage adds no benefit to your life. Although it temporarily stokes your ego and makes you feel like you’re in control, you are in fact losing control… losing grip on reality… losing grip on all that will make you feel happy again.
It’s times like these where I need my Lord more than ever… and I have strayed far. I need to go back.