The past week has been completely unproductive. I haven’t done anything worthwhile and all I’ve done was sit at home watch TV, make a mess at home and go to work everyday. I haven’t taken my medication in awhile… I just tend to forget.
I haven’t been praying, haven’t been reading the scriptures…. I just can’t get myself to do it. And I’m feeling the absence of the Spirit as a result. I just don’t feel like doing anything anymore.
How could she tell me that? How could she just say that she wants a good looking guy so that people will be jealous of her. We’ve been working so hard to get out of this hole we’re in, and I hear that stupid remark. I can’t change. I don’t have the time to diet, cook properly, exercise… Nico’s here and someone has to take care of him. And when someone is here to watch him, I have to go to work.
I haven’t had a real vacation in a long time. My vacations are basically spent watching Nico or Brian and Fernie. I just need some time to get away, but I don’t have anything left until July. I hope I make it that long.