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Breaking Free

This is quite a personal entry. You’ve been warned. Since none of my close friends and family (except my wife) know about this site, I have no problem writing about it.

One year ago, I went to the doctor for the first time to talk about my depression. It was one of the most toughest things that I went through but it was also one of the most important decisions I have ever made. Since then, I have been under medication to help control my depression. After a year of change, life is starting to turn around and things have been going quite well.

I’m at the point now where I haven’t taken my medication in over two weeks. I can really feel a big difference in the way I feel and react, but the difference is that there is a little bit more perspective and control. I’m slowly weening myself away, and I hope that I can stick to the right path and stay positive.

I have to admit, I’m a bit scared to break free of the crutch. The medication has helped me move a long and make good decisions with my life. But now, I need to lean more heavily on myself and prayer with my Father in heaven. I really hope that my Father in heaven will multiply my efforts.

So Two weeks! I hope I can not just endure it well, but to live it… to live life well. Free of medication… but full of gratitude to my Father in Heaven who makes my life possible.

2 thoughts on “Breaking Free

  1. Evelyn

    I’ve notice the big change on you. Hey…It’s a good change.
    Did I make you that much trouble? I hope not.
    I love you hun. You made me the most happiest woman in the whole world.
    I try my best to make you happy…

    I know you can endure without medication…Now that you are relieve from the past.
    Don’t give up hun, I hope to see you happy again without medication.

    Sometimes, I bleam myself about your depression. I hope I can help you more. I’ll do all I can to help you
    succeed. ‘coz this is our battle together…you’re my otherhalf. You are my life. i can’t stand without you.
    I love you Herb. Evie

  2. yong_sa

    Hi hun! You don’t have to blame yourself… depression is a medical condition. Although certain life events can play a role in initiating depression, people are not to blame.

    Medicine and prayer and your loving support helped me get through one of the most toughest periods of my life. I love you very much hun. Don’t forget that.

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